Basic personal rights

A while ago now my Psychiatrist gave me a list of “Basic Personal Rights”. He insisted that I read it and accept that I have the right to be seen, be heard, and to take care of myself. My homework for that week was to read the list, and to spend some time learning about and practicing “Self Care”. He stated that this list wasn’t something that someone should expect if they are a “good person” or have “earned them”, these are basic rights that anyone who lives and breathes should have the right to do and feel. I’ll share them here…

Basic Personal Rights:
I have the right to ask for what I want.
I have the right to say “No”.
I have the right to feel and express my feelings, both positive and negative.
I have the right to make mistakes.
I have the right to have my own opinions and convictions.
I have the right to be treated with dignity and respect.
I have the right to change my mind or decide on a different course of action.
I have the right to protest unfair treatment or criticism.
I have the right to expect honesty from others.
I have the right to my own values and standards.
I have the right to be angry at someone I love.
I have the right to say “I don’t know”.
I have the right to negotiate for change.
I have the right to be in a non-abusive environment.
I have the right to ask for help or emotional support.
I have the right to my own needs for personal space and time, even if others would prefer my company.
I have the right not to have to justify myself to others.
I have the right not to take responsibility for someone else’s behavior, feelings, or problems.
I have the right not to have to anticipate others needs and wishes.
I have the right not to always worry about the goodwill of others.
I have the right to choose not to respond to a situation.

These are fundamental building blocks of self care, but the thing I struggled with then, and still struggle with now is a deep feeling of shame. Self care feels selfish to me, for me. I am always advocating to others that taking care of themselves first is essential, telling them that “you can’t pour from an empty cup”, but for me, putting myself first stuck in my throat and threatened to choke me. It seemed so self absorbed, so selfish, and hedonistic. Taking care of others is a granted, we should take care of others, it is the decent and humane thing to do. Above all we must be kind, show love, and caring. But to care for myself?

As I read through the above list, I cried, there was very little I felt entitled to in it, I was most uncomfortable with it. In fact the thought that I was going to have to try and work on feeling the right to expect these things from myself and from others sent me into a bit of a downward spiral which was quite hard to pull myself out of.

As the months have gone by I am slowly accepting that it is incredibly hypocritical of me to always be advising others to care for themselves, when I have placed so little weight on doing the same for myself. The thing that stuck the most in my mind was when a friend told me that I needed to take care of myself for my husband and children’s sake, she pointed out that if I gave myself time to rest when I was exhausted, and didn’t push myself to breaking, that I was doing something special for them… I was taking care of my childrens mother, so that she could then be more present and take care of them!

Self care, there is a fine balance between self care and selfish. Some people take self care to the extreme, where they never seem to find time or energy to put another first, or to even put another second. Their need to “take care of themselves” consumes their whole time and energies, that is self care that has become selfish. But for most, self care is an essential part of their daily routine, like brushing their hair or teeth. It doesn’t need to take all day, but 5 minutes here and there to breathe and focus on being settled is so important. These people, I notice, are content with themselves and their lives. They feel confident and entitled to respect from others, they are happier within themselves, competent.

It has take a long time to see that I deserve to care for myself, time where I actually make myself a priority, whether it is just to lay in bed and breathe (the housework will wait), or to staying home from church if it feels too hard to socialise that day (but phoning in to listen to the program) , to acknowledging that I’m not a terrible mother when the kids get weetbix for dinner because I feel too tired to cook (they got fed, and while it isn’t meat and three veggies, it is fairly nutritious). Because by doing kind things sometimes for myself, I enable myself to do more, more often, at a better quality, for others. I can nurture them, because I nurtured myself. I also can set a good example to my children, that it is okay to be kind to yourself, it would be sad to see them grow up to be unbalanced and always allow themselves to be put down or put themselves last.

Self care. It is something I still struggle with, but slowly I am coming to learn that there is a balance, like everything in our lives. It does not need to be black and white, there is a whole scale of shades of grey in between.

5 thoughts on “Basic personal rights

  1. I think self-care, and accepting these things as our own rights and entitlements, can be incredibly hard. More so if you’ve been through trauma and experiences where these things have been violated. One step at a time. Acknowledging them is great, then working on appreciating that you are worth it, that you deserve every single one without needing to ‘achieve’ them or do anything in return, will likely be a slow but steady process. Sending a hug your way..x
    Caz 🙂

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  2. Thank you for sharing your story! I resonate with a lot of what you said, especially self care. I am currently learning through counseling how important this is. In times of anxiety or stress, even just grabbing your favorite scented hand cream and putting it on and taking the time to enjoy the smell and feel, can do wonders. Taking a moment to make a cup of tea or something enjoyable to you can be enough. So often in times of anxiety and stress we get mad at ourselves like we did something wrong. Sometimes the words creep in “what’s wrong with me” or “why did I react that way”….when we should be saying “it’s okay”. A new found love I have is mindfulness. The more moments I can have and truly be in, the less anxiety I feel. One silly example I read from a mindfulness book one time was called puppy talk. You know how we talk to pets and babies? That high pitched, happy voice. It advised talking to yourself that way because how can you say anything negative to yourself in that voice 🙂 Like you, this is something I can advise others on but it’s work. It takes conscious effort and sometimes it’s easy to forget or override.


    1. Thank you so much for your lovely reply. I love the point you make about how we talk to babies and animals, that happiness. It is infectious isn’t it! Mindfulness is incredibly helpful! Thank you again!

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